In these
moments where the uncertainty of the future dawns upon us and hits is right in
the face,
forcing us to wake up and make certain decisions that will affect us down the
road. Senior year can be
classified as an emotional roller coaster that drives is trough paths of
euphoria and melancholy
at the same time. At times it's where
nostalgic feelings become stronger than our will to
advance and become independent adults.
For a girl that is hardly attached to anything (being either emotional or material) I have to admit that this transition will not be easy. 8 schools in 12 years have gotten me to learn how to adapt quickly and attempt to get de attached emotionally with the people and places that I encounter along the way. Colombia was a turning point in the life of this young nomad. I found people on the inside and outside of CP that changed my perception of life as well as the idea I had about myself, making it verydifficult for me to leave again.
For this assignment we were to explain how after we leave this school, we are going to change
the world.
I don’t know, the world is a pretty huge place. And the idea that a life well lived means one that has impacted the world, has always haunted me. Until I read something that explained that by imprinting yourself to one person, you would have already changed their world.
I still don’t know what I want to do with my life or received that celestial call that will tell me about why am I on this earth. It is something that will be figured out with time and experiences, I guess.
Or at least hope
I want never ending learning for as long as I shall live. Exploring other cultures, meeting people and keeping an open mind. Family will always be first. The ones I have near to me, the ones far away and also the ones that have adopted me and added me to their own families.
I won’t deprive myself from life simplest pleasures. From small to gigantic I will notice the world that surrounds me. I will share everything that I have to offer. And help everyone that needs a hand in order make their world better. I won’t worry about oblivion and allow things to come and go as they should.
I know money is important in this society yet this will not be something that will drive me away from what I love the most. The idea of monetary stability will not impair my happiness and goals.
While I write
this I can’t help to think if I am able to accomplish them or even to believe
in them after a couple of months. In the real world, will I succumb to the pressure this will
put onme? Or will I live a life well lived? (For whatever that means)
One of the hardest things for me it’s to write about myself and I think that is in fact pretty obvious right now. But the thing is that this assignment was created for two reasons. One of them being for the teachers. For them to have an idea about the human beings that they have had to deal with for the past two years. And the second one and most crucial is for us. To reflect about the life we want with the values that we will embrace. In order for us to admire who we have become and to accept a near future that it is approaching faster than we ever imagined it to.
I can’t help to think how scary it all sounds for me, and while some of my peers are ready to jump into this so called real world, I am a little apprehensive. But this is a rite of passage that everyone goes through differently. Each one of us with its own set of fears and ambitions.
I like to think that one day I will look back at this assignment and laugh at my 18 year old self.
Also there are a lot of “I” in this and for some reason I dislike that greatly. Don’t know why.
This doesn’t look like a manifesto at all, but I guess you could see the similar format of a written reflection.
So from this girl who is about to enter legal adulthood in exactly 48 hours. I have to say good luck to all of us. For whatever path that we may choose to go down, I hope that it will be one that fill us with the happiness that you can only get while being yourself and doing what you want and love in the process.